2011..

Looking back on everything that happened last year. The worst things that have ever happened to me, all happened in 2011, and yet I don’t hate it, I don’t look back on it as a bad year. I had a lot of issues, I lost a lot of people. My life dramatically changed within a day, my entire world got turned upside down. I fell head over heels for guys that I’m not going to remember in 10 years, and I look back at that and wonder what was I thinking. I had all these meaningless hookups, but at least I look back at those and laugh because there’s a good memory behind it all. I screwed up a fair bit. I bitched a lot. I was kind of irresponsible. I cried so much. I raged. But I learnt so much. I matured so much. I realized that you need to expect the unexpected, because within a minute your life can be changed forever. You have to appreciate everything you have and most of all every person in your life. Because anything and anybody can be taken from you at any time, without any warning. Have fun, doing all the crazy wild things you want, because that’s what I did. I stopped caring what people would think, because people are going to talk whether you’re doing bad or good. I had fun doing nothing, and I had fun doing everything. I had heaps of quiet nights in being lazy, and I had some wild nights too. But I always had fun. I learnt to stand up for myself, to stop trying to please everybody. To just stop worrying about the little things, to not stress myself over the bullshit. I found out which friends I need to keep close to heart and which ones I can live without. I actually tried and did good in school. I made my mum proud. I made my dad proud. Most importantly, I made myself proud. I look back at everything that happened, and I have never really been able to say this before but I’m proud of the way I dealt with every thing, and I’m proud of the person that 2011 shaped me to become, I am proud of me.